21 April 2008

Who Holds the Future

For many years I have said, "I don't know what the future holds, but I know Who holds the future." I've decided to write a song as that is the theme of my life. In reality, it is the theme of all our lives whether we admit it or not. Tomorrow is known to no man, but God knows what is in tomorrow.

As I suspected, my doctor did not return my calls about the uterine fibroids and instead put in for a referral to a surgeon. I received the authorization in the mail today. I rang the doctors' office and my appointment is for May 1st (appropriately named "May Day"). I went by the center that did my ultrasound to pick up the results for the appointment. Since I'm not a doctor I don't know what a couple of things in the report mean, but I'm gonna post it here verbatim:

"FINDINGS: Transabdominal and endovaginal imaging of the pelvis was performed. The uterus is mildly enlarged measuring 9 cm in length x 7 cm in AP dimension x 6.2 cm in transverse dimension. There are three leiomyomata; one is anterior uterine fundal 27 x 25 x 26 mm, another is fundal 29 x 23 x 20 mm and another one appears to be either in or directly adjacent to the endometrial cavity, possibly submucosal leiomyoma and measured 27 x 19 x 19 mm. I don't definitely see this presumed leiomyona splaying the endometrial stripe and therefore I supect this is a submucosal leiomyoma rather than an endometrial polyp. The endometrial thickness is difficult to evalute due to the leiomyoma in this region. There is no abnormal fluid collection seen in the endometrial cavity. The ovaries are normal, the right measures 27 x 18 x 26 mm and the left is 28 x 18 x 20 mm."

To clarify a couple of terms the word leiomyomata is the plural medical word for fibroids and leiomyoma is the singular medical word for fibroids. (Just in case: verbatim means word for word as written in the report. Including any misspelled words or grammatical errors. These people went to medical school not language school.) Also, if you don't know metric, there are 10 mm in 1 cm. A cm is a little less than half an inch. You can look up anything else you may want to know on the web. Good luck with that.

Anyway, as soon as I know when the surgery is I will post the info here. NOTE: the doc may not opt for surgery, however, that is my direction. Last week while I was on my period I was out of commission for about four days. I only took one full sick day from work and left early another day and one of the days was Sunday. Surgery is not always necessary, but in deteriorating quality of life I suspect it's the best way to go. Plus, when I get married and start having kids the fibroids will cause complications. (Don't get all excited! I haven't met him yet, but I still believe I will get married and have kids.)

That being said, next on the agenda: I was out of town for my annual Spring Leadership business conference this past weekend. I am off work today for the purpose of my seventh day of rest. Scully and I went out to run a couple of errands. When we arrived home Paul & Vickie were in the yard. I stopped to chat with Vickie for a moment before planning on going inside for lunch. Paul came around and asked me to have a seat saying that they had something to tell me. I said, "You're selling the house and moving." He let out and uncomfortable laugh and responded, "Well, yes."

He explained that they own another home in town that they have been renting out. The family renting from them called to see about getting out of their lease early (it's up in September). They are looking into buying a foreclosed home. The deal they worked out was to give each other 60 days notice for moving. The other house is less upkeep & costs. They had first offered it to their youngest son & daughter-in-law, but they declined. So, they are going to put this property on the market and move back into the other. As Paul stated, "We don't know how long it will take to sell it or how long it might take for the other family to find a place, but we're sure to be moving either way. It could work out that the people who buy this place would keep you and Scully on as renters."

Vickie commented that they knew about this a couple weeks ago. When we went to lunch together a week ago she said she couldn't tell me. Paul called her that night and she said, "I'm not telling Lisa & Scully they have to move." I responded, "I'm not worried about it. I've said for years I don't know what the future holds, but I know WHO holds the future. I am thankful that He chose to put us together because we're all friends now and we'll know each other for many years to come."

As I continue on this journey in life I know that I know that I know that GOD knows what is best for me and Scully. One of my friends always quoted two words from Psalms: "Come expecting." So, I come to a new day in my life looking forward to the future with anticipation & expectance of the great things My Heavenly Father has for me.

Join with me in prayer for the healing and the home.

1 comment:

archi's mum said...

i will most certainly be praying for both and from what i hear of the weekend it was a good one for hope and a future in the biz. debbie told me all the work she and i did on weds on how i need to move my biz was exactly what hawkins taught! so i know what you have in front of you cuz it's the same thing i have to move my biz. it will change a lot of options for both of us!